I Wish….
I wish…that I could sleep better now each night..
I wish…I don’t have to hurt myself of thinking about how are things going to turn out in the end…
I wish…my family could live normal again like before…
I wish…I don’t have to suffer being reminded by people about the upcoming event…
I wish…I could live comfortably like back when we were in Enschede…
I wish…i don’t have to feel sad or even mad everytime I hear someone’s name…
I wish…I could put all the bad things behind me…
I wish… I could change the past…and not wondering what today would be like….
I wish…I could stop wishing for something that is too late to be changed…
Everything has already been decided…
My wish may not come true in this lifetime…but I still hold the last words close to my heart…that God will grant me my wish…maybe not today…not tomorrow…but perhaps after we’re all not in this world…
God has plans for everyone of us…and I just have to accept it for now..that it is not for me to hold…it is for others to hold…
It teaches me not to be greedy…to realize the great things that had happened to me…and also to appreciate what I have in my hand right now…
Even so…I could not help wondering each day…how’s my life would be like if my wish had came true….
If only….
